Last week I posted about taking a break from writing over Christmas. I was only supposed to be coming back to it tomorrow (Tuesday), but I’ve missed writing more than I ever thought I would, so I’m starting again today.
When I worked my 9-5 – even though it wasn’t really 9-5 – in IT, and had time off, I dreaded going back into the office. Don’t get me wrong, I did enjoy my job – in the most part – but I hated going into an office, or more recently, logging on while working from home. Now I’m writing full-time, I feel more relaxed with what I’m doing, which is doing wonders for my mental health.
Doing my own thing helps so much. Having the option of not doing anything if my brain is having an off day reduces the stress I feel on a daily basis, and I can just relax until I feel better. There was nothing worse on a day when my brain was rebelling than having to put my “happy face” on and pretend I was okay when inside I was screaming. Being able to take a break whenever I like also helps. I can have a wander, or get a drink/snack, without anyone monitoring the length of time I take away from my desk. It’s so freeing.
Anyway, today I’m back at it, and I’ll mostly be working on some blog entries for Wednesday and Friday. I’ve got a few ideas that I’ve been working on for the games blog on Wednesday, and I’ll no doubt have something to say on mental health on Friday, because, well, I still have my brain.
I’m surprised that I actually managed to stick to the no writing for the last week. I didn’t think I would make it this far, to be honest. I thought I’d be on day 2 and then get back into it. That’s not to say I didn’t want to. It was almost painful at times being away from writing, the urge to “just do a little bit” was always there (it would never be “just a bit”), but I also knew that I needed to take a break, to recharge and not get burnt out.
Having some time off from actually writing words, didn’t stop my brain from coming up with new ideas for stories or where to take my current WIPs. So now, when I come back to them, I have a stack of things that I can work on and try to fit into them.
The other thing I discovered having time off, is that not having writing to focus on allowed the pain I’m still feeling in my hip to bubble to the surface and feel worse. I’m hoping that getting back to writing will not only help my mental health but also stop me focusing on any physical pain I’m experiencing.
So…back to it.