So here we are. The big four-oh. My 40th birthday is tomorrow, and I honestly don’t know how to feel about it.Part of me wants to wax lyrical about life and milestones and everything I’ve learned – to say something meaningful and reflective, the kind of thing people nod along with and say, “Yes, that … Continue reading Tomorrow I Turn 40 – And Honestly, I Still Can’t Believe It
This week, as the rest of the university, is off to prepare for assessments, our course was also given the week off despite us not having any assessments for a while. For one of our lectures, we were given some work to prepare for a group presentation. This is the first “proper” work that I’ve … Continue reading Actually Doing University Work
At the minute, I’m not feeling great. Over the past few weeks, I’ve been descending into a depressive episode, and I’m struggling to keep my head above water so that I can get out of it. This isn’t to say that I’m not happy in my life. I’ve got an amazing partner who does everything … Continue reading Stuck in a Depressive Episode
In previous blog posts, I've explained what Bipolar is and how the manic side can affect you. In this post, I'll discuss how a depressive episode can come about and affect you. When people think about depression they generally think about someone who is a bit sad for a given reason. This is absolutely not … Continue reading Bipolar Disorder: The Depressive Side
The past few weeks have been manic - I don't mean inside my brain either. There hasn't really been a time when someone hasn't been coming and going from our house and it's taken its toll on my mood. Although I'm not hitting a full on depressive episode, I've not been feeling right. After discussing … Continue reading Getting Prepared
This morning I had some great news about something that I have eluded to in previous blog posts. From September, I will be becoming a student as I start my creative writing course at university. I didn’t want to say anything until it was all confirmed because I worried that something would go wrong and … Continue reading Learning More About My Craft
This blog is a little late today as it took me a while to write it for reasons I'll explain below. It’s been a stressful few weeks. We’ve moved into our new house, and since then, it’s been pretty much non-stop with people coming in and out doing jobs. I wish I could say that … Continue reading A Bit of a Dip: Taking a Break
When the week started, I was determined to get the paperback proof copy of Blindsighted edited, but it so far hasn’t happened for one reason or another. I’ve managed to get around three quarters the way through it, but the past couple of days haven’t been very productive. I find editing a difficult thing to … Continue reading The Editing Struggle
Anxiety. Like many other people with bipolar, anxiety is an added unwanted bonus that comes along with it. For many, anxiety is a feeling that occurs every now and then and may be associated with a big event; for example, a job interview, talking in front of others. These situations are considered a normal cause … Continue reading Anxiety and CBT
Before Christmas, I did an overview of Bipolar Disorder and what it means and what it causes. Being Bipolar/Manic Depressive means you not only have depressive episodes; but also manic ones. In my life, the depressive episodes have far outweighed the manic ones. But allow me to let you in on how some of my … Continue reading Bipolar: The Manic Side
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